Welcome to Day 69/78! It’s a relaxing, rainy Sunday so I am slow to start today.
For the Queen of Pentacles, I chose to do Adho Mukha Sukhasana (Easy Pose Forward Fold) because, once again, with Pentacles I always feel the need to be close to the earth.
Yoga Tarot Card Image © Lo Scarabeo
“The eagerness to excel is fuelled by your own conceit. Material security — lack of openness” (p. 10)
Between the ages of 18 and 25, I compensated for everything I thought I needed to prove to people. Everything I did, I can pinpoint the origin of that insecurity to something negative someone said about me — sometimes to my face, sometimes behind my back.
None of it was true. I even knew the things they said weren’t true, but I felt I had to prove it all to them anyway. So I did. I excelled because of my bruised adolescent Ego.
In a way, I’m grateful to those people, not for the hurtful things they said, but for the foundation it laid. It served me well for many years before it was shaken. I gained material security and an openness to experiences I never would’ve taken if I hadn’t felt compelled to answer to their judgments.
I’m ready to move on. I don’t need others’ paths beneath my feet to find my way home.
In just being a living spiritual being, I am my own home.